seanyarnell

i just got sort of a 'detention' today, cos i dint finish my emaths hw. but i was really tired last night and i couldnt think of the answers!
and many hilarious things happened in school these few days. its been especially fun hanging around with the three of them and lala, delia,melodi and many many more!
i cheated alot of times bout the hw stuffs too. it was so risky, but damn exciting. and i really really love pe, its like we will all go wild. and lala says i look wild, where got! ha.
and i was thinking of dying my hair blue when the holidays come again. so its like a different color each year.

WOOHOO! its set. if i can do well for my exams (the non existent mid years), i can get an iphone! how wonderful is that. and now its gonna be my motivation. iphone looks so marvellous, i cant wait to get my hands on it. and i dont have to bring my ipod around anymore! its just iphone and me, me and iphone!(: since my n73 has scratches all over too.


alright, so the meeting today was hilarious. the main cause of it was becos the person who was speaking cant speak properly. he was saying " so now everyone is rushing for the rain" when he was supposed to say " so now everyone is rushing for the lane" and i kept playing with wedgehead while amanda played with ox! and my sec1 tuition friend who was sitting beside keep asking questions. ohyeah, before i forget. THE RANGE WAS BLOODY COLD. and i realised that my locker is quite neat. and i finally got my vans today.but i had to carry it home all the way from yishun to east coast okay. it was so troublesome, especially with the damn rain.

im not certain of this feeling,
i dont know if this is real.
please dont tell me that youre kidding me,
cause you force my heart into million of pieces.
and there will always be a few missing parts.

perhaps, just perhaps its true.
but dont make it real then tell me its all gone.
for the time being,
i will be optimistic.






i dont know what to say bout you, but it has happened to me before, when i was in switched positions with you.

MY GOD,
i bet i can go bonkers these days, with all the thrill. and my trgs end at 7 everytime? except if i reach thr earlier and that i have passed the requirements for that day.so i cant go for trg this friday, theres that audition, (why cant it be on thurs)and i will freaking miss all the fun.

school's been great too! with all the fergalicious, and fun? im quite contented wth life now, except for the damn tired part.

Smile, just smile to me.
all i need is your care and concern.
many times in a row i attempt to let it go, but theres always a tiny little bit that never leaves.i would still be bothered about your actions, and i would ask bout yor on-goings.
yes, its just like curiosity kills the cat.
perhaps you still live in my heart, i dont know.
all im sure of is that i dont want to hurt you anymore.

so, how?
you make me feel so bad.



gossiping certainly is fun, but it always has to be done with ppl whom knows what youre talking bout.lucky i found mine(: and im the ailen who followed the two toof toof to toof toof 1's hse. and when i reached cp with toof toof2, i saw my bus. and on the bus, i saw zhenzhi and cynthia. so i talked to them, and we went thr tgt before spilting ways at watsons. and it so happens that i met aiting at the other bus stop, so we travelled thr tgt.
today turned out to be quite nice, and i broke my record!(: and now my coach's gonna write an email to that tcher for excuse from camp. but i dont know if this is good or not, cos i actually want to go to the camp, just that i dont want to stay for long. what a selfish person i am right. i dint know this sat's shoot was taken in such an impt position.

oh ya, one last thing.
i detest rude ppl.

school wasnt that bad on friday. well at least i played a game with some others. hopefully it will become even better for the days to come. and honestly, i cant adapt that fast. 2d just keeps going on and on in my mind and needless to say, i really miss that class alot. i could see that germy, zhenzhi, emma, yanyan and lots are missing 2d too. hmm, that is if so. but coming to think of it, theres still a hcl class when we will be tgt again! at least with all the chi. and camp's coming! im going to apply for early release on thurs night and pls let me get it. theres sth going on sat, and i have to attend the session on fri to prepare for it. i dint give it much thought in the first place till i was reminded bout it.

theres gonna be tuition tmr and i havent finish the work yet.perhaps i could get up earlier and finish them up.

seriously, i dont know whats going on within me these days. its like as if my mood is totally changing to being miserable and sad. someone, pls tell me what to do. and i dont want blamings, i dont want reprimands, i dont want critism, i just want comfort and safety. i dont like it when ppl think the other way, which means im a person where everything seems very easy to me and i wont give it a damn. but the cruel truth is that i would, i really would. as the saying goes, never judge a book by its cover. you wont know what im like, you wont know the way the think. and i doubt anyone can speak in a way where its absolutely not hurting. i know im weak, you dont have to tell me to be stronger. i have my own mind, i will know what to do.

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the footsteps were never comforting. instead, it sort of scared me.
oh please dont do it again.
oh no, its happening again.
leave me alone, would you?
stop torturing me, can you?
please dont leave me in misery.
please dont make me so sad.
please change everything.
please stop it.

once again, im sinking into depression.
and once again, i would be visiting the trees and small hills with the beautiful flowers alone.
and once again, the adults would stare at me as if im a lost kid wandering in the cold cold streets.

let me tell you a something funny.

when i was talking to uncle,
my neck was so tired.
cos i had to look up,